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2006-08-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

to the hoardes of screaming female fans.. i'm sorry i havent been updating but that's no reason to get all depressed =)

ok dudes it's been damn long since i last updated haha and this isnt exactly a megapost to compensate for everything. i've been reading some of my past entries from this blog and my other blog. and gosh i'm such a chameleon haha. sometimes i just cant believe that i actually wrote that stuff! it's unbelievable how quickly i change haha.

cause i'm a million different people from one day to the next

some entries make me cringe, some make me laugh, some make me go O_O. so if anyone wants to judge me by my blog haha do read only the latest post cuz it's usually the latest version of me rather than the obsolete ajits u get from earlier posts haha. (hmm 'obsolete' can be rearranged to 'lot obese' .. ok random lol)

contrary to most people i actually enjoy doing the 3 achievements thingie. cuz u have like 6000 characters to brag. DUDE.

rooney and scholes got banned. woohoo. what next? ronaldo getting raped? haha wouldnt put it past those brits lol.

navjote and junyi will be shot one day. i swear =)

okayy i dun think i have anything else to say unfortunately. be strong till my next post, my beloved fanclub X)

`toodles

18

2006-06-26T08:51:00.000-07:00

i've switched off the lights and i'm sitting here alone in the dark. it's really silent and refreshing. dusk is slowly creeping in now with all of its unique sounds and the blanket of idunnowhat, it seems to cast on everything, sedating it. i swear there's something positively mystical about this. haha.

ticktock ticktock 5 more minutes till it's gone

thanks to my family, namely my grandma, mum, dad, sis, grandaunts, aunts and uncles for their wishes. thanks to my friends for remembering this day that might not be so special to you but you remembering it made it a whole lot more special to me =)
so thanks navjote, xiuwen, dani, reub, ramana, snee, samjo, bhavan, imran, liru.. i'm really grateful =)

okay the magic has seemed to have passed and i'm stuck with bio once again. urgh.

happy birthday to me

losing

2006-05-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

there are worse things than losing.

like being told that you were the reason your team lost the final.

like being told you didnt deserve the trophy in your hand cuz u didnt speak.

i'm over all that now but yeah. there are worse things than losing. the ruggers, girl hockers, whoever, they all tried their best and did raffles proud. that's all we asked for. nothing more. nothing less.

raffles.

faith

2006-04-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

meet kellie pickler. the day after her 2nd birthday, her mum abandoned the family. her dad was a drug abuser and an alcoholic. he often found himself in and out of jail. as a result, she spent most of her life living with her grandparents. when she successfully auditioned for american idol, people said a lot of nasty things about her. they said she was another useless dumb blonde, while those that didnt said that she was pretending to be dumb to get votes. an entire website was devoted to her being the worst contestant in the competition. they tried to use all sorts of evidence to prove that she was faking her pleasant personality. there was a hate campaign against her despite the so called conclusive proof that she wasnt what she appeared to be being the testimony of shady witnesses like 'a waitress' or a 'backstage supervisor'. when she cried about her family background, they said she was shedding crocodile tears. now these people should be feeling very satisfied right now because she just got voted off recently. despite the fact that she had an interesting voice and simon cowell's prediction that she would make the top 3, two bad song selections eventually led to her downfall. she conceded that she was the worst performer and vowed to continue striving to acheive her dreams.

meet alan smith. many years ago he started his career with leeds united as a promising young soccer player. however, people mistook his pure passion for foolhardiness due to the large numbers of red and yellow cards he accumalated. though he was a striker, he didnt really score that many goals. people critisised him for that. these same people probably didnt see how leeds united used alan smith in every midfield position as an auxilary midfielder and the number of goals he set up for the 'more selfish' mark viduka. man utd signed alan smith and promised to use him as a striker. due to squad injuries, he was immediately called upon to single handedly carry the man utd strikeforce burden, which he did admirably. the following season, he was converted to a defensive midfielder, which he consented to without any complaint. people critisised him again for his performances despite forgetting that defensive midfielders generally have a vastly different job from strikers. yet alan smith never failed to give 200% as exemplified by a match against chelsea when he alone held firm against what was regarded as one of the better midfields in the world. alan smith horrifically broke his leg against liverpool and will not play in the world cup. he has vowed to come back to stake his place in the man utd squad and try his best again.

now all this really set me thinking. most people in their positions would have probably just given up and gone on to do something with the flow. but what's the point in doing that? where's the challenge? where's the fun? and it struck me. i've been too negative lately. giving up on things too easily without a fight. constantly being defeated even before the battle begins. maybe that's why i screwed up my common tests even though i worked hard for them. i used to get kicks from going into things with the odds heavily stacked against me. i kept falling down but i'd just get up, dust myself and run off to another kamikaze charge. i guess one day i got knocked down and i just didnt get up. and that's where the problem was. well i think it's about time i picked myself up once again. laugh all u want but i respect people like kellie pickler and alan smith who arent necessarily the most talented people around. but hell they definitely got the guts to look the odds in the eye and tell them to get lost. and i think above all, that's just how i want to be like. i'm back.

i got this link off samjo's blog the other day.

http://todayspictures.slate.com/inmotion/essay_chernobyl/?GT1=8019

i think it just puts everything into perspective for all of us. i was looking at these pictures 5 minutes before checking the scores of the chelsea-manutd game, so quite frankly i didnt really care what the score was. it was worse considering that most of the pictures there were of kids. kids just like us. young innocent kids who never stood a chance. i guess things like this are probably the reason why i remain agnostic. because no way in hell can i comprehend why any 'divine being' would be cruel enough to let this kind of thing happen. and i'll bet even no one out there who's strongly entrenched in religion has the answer to that question (except the scientologists and xenu who will claim that evil psychiatrists did it). if you're reading this post, please look at the pictures. if you still dont feel anything after looking at them, then you are a heartless bitch.

sorry as you can probably tell this is like a compilation of various posts. this is probably cuz blogger's being very annoying and keeps timing out. so i find it very difficult to string a proper long post together. that's one of the reasons why i update as irregularly as paula abdul's periods or peter crouch's goals. oops. =)

oh yes and yesterday was bio spa. haha i have liru to thank for giving me the tip the night before so i went into the spa quite confidently haha. oh and yes after the spa our class was noisy (as usual) and we got scolded (as usual). the grand total who ponned yesterday currently stands at 10. but that includes our friend recruit tay zhi rong haha so 9 ppl actually. so much so that now they're probably gonna change it so HAHA. after spa we were supposed to go for the worker's party rally. but reub and zaka ponned sch so we didnt ask them fearing they'd ditch us haha. harshil and suhas suspiciously disappeared immediately after spa. desmundo had his match and was chlling with his best friend v for vishal in the canteen in his customized sch u haha. arshvink had SATS the next day, kevin went m.i.a. and ramana had a krishni date or something. so suzie and i just went home instead. i didnt really wanna go without the company and the traffic was bad so i sat it out. so there went all our wild plans for making it a rally to remember =p.

it's election day today. i think that people who say that the 'gahmen' has done a really good job so far are naive heartlanders who're only capable of scratching the surface. i've heard so much from so many people about the 'gahmen' and it sickens me sometimes. it boils down to what you's rather have i guess; a moral govt that hasnt done such a spectacular job but ensures the upholding of rights and such or a strong nearly dictatorial govt that infringes on rights and such only to the extent that the enternal perspective is that it is doing a good job. i agree that maye the oppostion sometimes isnt capable. i think the issue probably doesnt lie with who is in power. absolute power would corrupt anyone. the issue lies in there not being an oppositon that has sufficent power to act as a check and balance against the ruling party. for the nature of conflicting political parties (both with sufficient power in parliment) is such that both will be competing with each other and in so doing, expose the wrongs of the other party. i know that this sort of power sharing would lead to an indecisive govt, as in the case of italy or even germany now. but in moral and ethical terms, i'm guessing this is what would be best for the people. i'll probably be cynically watching the results tonight knowing that whatever happens, the country will probably lose. this is probably why i dont really see a future for myself here.

manutd's last game of the season is tmr if i'm not mistaken. its been a disappointing season but i hope they ring in the changes in the summer. i would love to see carrick and reo-coker beef up the united midfield. cant wait to watch the champion's league final and i may even watch the uefa cup final hoping the boro win. it's gutting that wayne rooney will miss out on the world cup. i frankly dont care about england and think that eriksson doesnt have to guts to make the appropriate changes, but i feel sorry for rooney. he would have made a huge impact and i can only hope he recovers on time. i hope spain do well haha. managed to find another spain fan in nishtala so that brings the grand total to 2 other spain fans i know woohoo! haha. whee so much soccer to look forward too these hols =)

okie actually these hols will probably involve a lot of mugging too but this time i think i'll be ready to handle common tests. i also have to do intensive fitness these hols to make sure i can do pullups and hence go to prom! haha.

AND TO ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE.. YOU ARE ALL OFFICIALLY INVITED TO MY BIRTHDAY PARTY ON 26TH JUNE! VENUE WILL BE THE RJC MULTI PURPOSE HALL AND THE PARTY IS CALLED "RJC PHYSICS COMMON TEST"

whoopee i cant wait =)
haha okie ciao folks and hope u enjoyed the rare long post =)

lecture

2006-04-17T08:01:00.000-07:00

momentous occurences in ajit's life today

1) gp lesson turned into a free-for-all again. abhi and arshvin didnt do their project so they admirably rewrote an entire chapter of art history by smoking their way thru. have to give abhi credit cuz that was the most amazing bullshit i've ever heard haha. rest of the lesson was spent discussing the existence of god and making fun of scientologists haha. i mean come on a space alien called xenu??? heh.

2) bio lecturer decided to call out my name on the very first bio lec i attend in 2 weeks. gee wow. i wasnt paying attention when she asked me where human growth hormones are obtained from. desmond said pigs, arshvin said jews and reuben said magic potatoes. so i took the average and said cows heh. yes i know i'm a retard and that i'm now the laughing stock of bio s haha.

3) we struck a deal with the ruggers to shave vishal if he didnt pay $25 for the rugby bear.

4) oh yes and i impressed the class with my profound concepts on philososphy and the paradox surrounding the existence of god. see i knew reading the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy would get me somewhere hahaha =p

well house party was alright i guess and i've said what i want to say. thanks for tagging samjo =)
i'm guessing that not that many ppl read this blog judging by the number of tags haha. sigh i got no friends. haha.
oh well..

newspaper

2006-04-09T10:48:00.000-07:00

haha i'm quite tired now so this will be a quick update. =)

well yes i'm in the papers too! but i look like an uber retard or pervert cuz the geiniuses had to take the one photo in which i BLINKED! oh well anyone want me to autograph their copy of the newspaper? =p. anyway this is gonna set of a chain reaction. a modelling agency will see that pic and talent spot me and this will spark off a series of events that will eventually lead to my meteoric rise to fame and eventual replacement of ryan seacrest as the host of american idol! =)

opening ceremony was quite fun on the whole. too much to type about now so i'll just mention briefly. rproject was quite good. mah sisters totwally rocked =). though liyana could have been an oompa loompa (dunno just random haha), candice looked like she had been attacked by a werewolf and sarah was wearing a dead racoon heh. just kidding i love you guysss haha =). congrats to mastan, yanni, denise, anita, mich, max and all the others who made it a success! oh and btw ms smith and cand, in the photo we took, my eyes are closed... again >_<! hmpf and my pic with james m turned out blurry haha. oh wells.

props should also go to the bmdp ppl. shibby, evey, chere and all the others =). it's heartening to know that many ppl did bother to give blood samples. even super needlephobic wimps like a certain suhas malhotra. haha chill dude u took the pinprick like a man =). i must admit though that my blood did have an interesting taste. ah dang there go my chances with kate beckinsale =p

oooohh and haunted house was one of the most amusing experiences i've had haha. really really bang up job by rp... i was really really impressed by the set. as for the spooks.. well i dont scare easy i guess haha. anyway i was the last person so like all i got to hear was ilman and hanlong screaming. which was so funny haha. the corpse falling on me was probably the closest to scaring me but it was more shock than anything haha. but it was also good fun hanging around outside talking to the rp ppl. gavin giving me hair advice and jo attempting to entertain 8 guys trying to act macho hahaha. good job rp =)

we also camwhored a whole bunch haha. and of course camwhoring is always such fun isnt it. i finally got to take a picture with my co-emcee ms snee haha since well i FAINTED. urgh. took a lot of photos with other ppl too and i promise i'll upload them and stuff when i finally locate my cable =)

anyway life kinda was on a low the past week or so but thanks to all those ppl who were there for me to talk to. it seems to be the latest trend not to name ppl so well i'm sure you guys know who u are =). dun worry happy ajit is kinda back and i hope he stays a while haha.

oh and man utd just beat arsenal 2-0. woooohoooo. bloody entertaining game haha. go red devils. burn some chelski ass =)

okie i think i'm gonna sleep now cuz i like need to go to the doctor early tmr morn to check the lump on my lip that's the size of Nebraska. ciao folks =)

sad

2006-03-23T08:05:00.000-08:00

i really wanted this post to be a cheerful one. i had every intention of posting some amusing anecdote that happened this week or random funny stuff about cts. but i just cant bring myself to do it. and i'm sorry.

everyone seems to have something to be depressed about lately. this isnt directed at anyone at all but it's just a general observation everywhere. i dunno but it just seems to me that everyone has the usual teen problems. appearences, insecurities, dontlikethatperson etc etc. right now i just cant help smiling wryly cuz if these were the only stuff i had to worry about, then i'd probably be a lot more sane haha.

they say that living a good, honest life while minding your own business is what's most important. well i've never heard bigger bullshit before. it certainly got my mum nowhere. and trying to lead that kind of life certainly isnt getting me anywhere. i dont wanna blame my mum, i dont wanna blame anyone. i just wish that i wasnt being used as an avenue for pent up frustration to be released.

i think everything just boiled over on monday when i completely bombed bio. i've never ever gotten anything below a B for any bio examination in my life and boom i'm probably gonna fail this. everything that could go wrong did. and having a mental block didnt help things at all. just couldnt think. too many things to think about...

if i dont do well for cts, then i prob cant get a second spaper and there goes potential scholarship. means that we have to bear the full financial cost of education. which only means nus. and since the only course in nus that remotely interests me is medcine, if i dun get that then i'll have to do something i have no interest in. brilliant way to kick off adult life.

gawddamnit i'm trying my best. i dun blame my mum for anything at all cuz of all she's been through. i try my best to go for class gatherings or other parties, but sometimes i just cant and it's not cuz i'm antisocial. i'm sorry if i seem miserly, but i need that cash. i'm sorry if i'm cynical about life or bitchy but sometimes i just cant keep myself from doing it. i want to shunt all this away and smile and return to that cheerful bubbly dude we're all familiar with but.. well..

i dont care what people say. someday i'm gonna break from all this and leave. and somehow i'll succeed. to become famous. powerful. laugh all you want now. someday. somehow. i'll do it. i'll find a way.

or i can just die broken.

life

2006-02-24T20:55:00.000-08:00

as i lay a crumpled heap on the floor, voices shouting at me in the background and dreams slowly fading away, it hit me like a tight slap. just how much my life truly sucked no matter how much i willed it otherwise.

new year

2005-12-31T01:07:00.000-08:00

the new year is dawning upon us in a few hours. this isn't like any other new year cuz too much will change. will it change for better or for worse? in time i'll know.

to all my friends, you'll know who you are, thank you so much for everything and here's to another great adventure =)

i just wish everyone could be happy on just this one day of the year.

remember. whatever. it seemed like forever ago.

lalala

2005-10-12T08:56:00.000-07:00

i transcend exhaustion haha. i think i respect muslims way way more now haha. felt bad about nadj, sharman, nabil n all fasting yet suffering for the house so i made the noble but pointless gesture of refraining from consuming any food/liquid in the morning. it's crazy! ok it's prob bcs i talk too much so i waste moisture.

which brings me to our rather interesting debate on tues night. sorry shang n sheryl, i really really couldn't think. full stop haha. i think the only phrase that registered in my mind was 'milking info from terrorists' which i managed to put in nearly every line i said. didn't know what the hell anyone was saying so i doodled. but i was vey proud when a rebuttal suddenly struck me and it occured to me that it happened to be the same point sheryl had tried to tell me twice on the floor. whoopsies.

i like commentating. i mean it doesn't have to be limited to what's going on in the event right? so i was justified in deeming girls 4x100 boring and starting to count cars rite? and i mean who doesn't insult gautam rite? and arjun pointed his index not middle finger at me thank you very much haha. house com lost to council in inter cca relay but i still have the last laugh. heeeheee.

i'm rambling again. whee. i'm so delirious right now. i may end up playing volleyball tmr. i hope not. oh and a wall collapsed in rjc today. too bad no one died. i mean good thing no one died. see i'm delirious heh.

getting back some results tmr. i hope i get an A and two Bs tmr. i shall now say goodnight backwards.
(= !!thgindoog

promos

2005-09-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

interesting how blogging is what i turn to at 1245 am when i'm tired of doing anything else.

omg promos are like in a week. i'm so underprepared! but then again, who isn't haha. just dropped by to clean up a bit of the dust that has settled here heh. won't be posting too much cuz there's too much work to do now.

pw is completely screwed and we have to rush like hell. ihc is being incredibly annoying and is giving me headaches i could certainly do without especially with promos looming. i dunno why the hell me and junyi are doing the ppt rite now for house meeting. surely there are ppl in the house com who haven't done anything so far who shld be doing it?

urgh i hope it's successful. i mean if we do something then it might as well be done well rite? slackers. bleargh i hope they bleed x)

i want to get an s paper! argh hopefully will fulfill target of acheiving minimum 'c' for math, 'b's for chem/physics and 'a' for bio. promos must not be as disappointing as common tests haha.

sigh it really sux when u work so hard for something but dun get it. though that flaming session during the weekend certainly made me feel much better haha. heh nvr mind eventually something really good will happen and i'll live happily ever after.

damn prozac should sponsor me haha..

PS. abhi said i didnt write anything about him the last time so i shall do so now --> he's not a hindu and he's not a virgin =D
[dude u asked for it heh =)]

floorball!

2005-08-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

today wa quite fun day haha. i'm cheerful again haha. i told u, it takes quite a lot to keep me depressed for long periods of time. it's like this primal instinct to seek optimism hahaha.

we played interhouse floorball today. we didn't do as well as we could have but the guys managed to scrape a 3rd. great job guys =). the girls completely destroyed everyone and won 1st haha. good signs indeed especially since the girls side was viewed as potentially less motivated. thanks to everyone who played today: lokesh, donovan, aditya, dani, snee, dennet, the list goes on haha. i sucked but tried my best. anyway as i'd promised junyi and jerry before the tournament, i scored a goal haha. as a goalkeeper. against morrison-richardson. with 40 seconds left in the game. u could say it was half fluke but a full screamer haha. everyone went so wild haha. i think it's the best celebrated goal of the tournament even though we lost the match. ohwells heh.

i've realised that 1s03b is a very special and weird class. everyone has done something that either makes him unique or a retard heh. and i figured that my blog is a good place to educate/warn u about the individuals in 1s03b. the guys at least haha

nabil once forgot his name
anwar talks to plants
arshvin is gonna be bald in a few years
kevin is a fagnet (fag-magnet)
ramana is secretly stockpiling weapons for the ltte
desmond is psychotically unstable
reuben can't keep a secret especially if his life depended on it
suhas believes that diamond can react with uranium
richard has a sec4 rg prc girlfriend
enqing is a canoodle-ist
harshil doesn't exactly smell like fresh cut roses
ian was prob kidnapped and raised by indians
bryan is after reuben's mum
chor seng is a huge mugger
suhairi was from sji
jinkai has good time management
delwin once forgot to wear pants

i'm the only normal one =)

sad

2005-08-16T23:47:00.000-07:00

one week u have it all and the next week it's all gone. so much cheer and joy one week, utter despondence the next. funny how u can feel so happy and contented but just watch it all come crashing down. am i not meant to remain happy? is this how the world works?

and it's not solely due to what u think it is. sigh i'll prob get over this soon. as usual.

positivity

2005-07-25T08:27:00.001-07:00

i met an old friend today whom i didn't recognise at first. whoah everyone's changed so much haha. he happened to be studying in an ITE in bishan as well and we had a little chat on the way back home. i dunno but for some strange reason, this meeting struck a chord in my heart. i still can feel the disbelief he radiated when he learnt that i got 6pts for my o levels. its then that it dawned on me that ive been so petty about trivial issues, such that i've lost track of life and what's important. not to belittle my friend in any way whatsoever but he would probably dearly love to be getting 6pts for his o levels while here i am whining about a chem paper and making excuses for failing it even though i was perfectly capable of getting a decent grade. i mean if i'm blessed with a decent level of intelligence, shouldn't i justify having it by striving hard and using it. i shouldn’t be staring hopelessly out of windows wallowing in self pity about why i'm not good looking or why i'm not a great debater.

life isn’t about what you dont have, its about what you do have and i'm glad that i've been awoken to this concept. we all say that we want to help others. but how much exactly can we truly help others if we cannot even accept ourselves? i am more fortunate than about 70% of the world's population. i am going to appreciate that fact and not take it for granted. so what if i can't afford expensive holidays? i can still afford an i-pod mini. so what if i can't pay for a course in a top

university. i can sure as hell put my brains to good use and get a scholarship.

so please slap me the next time i whine unnecessarily because hard work and perseverance are all i need to get my act moving and any failure can be attuned to a lack of either. it's time to make things count.

take care ppl =)

tired

2005-07-20T07:59:00.000-07:00

urgh i'm so tired. i think i'm pretty overworked but can't blame anyone but myself for getting into this situation haha. well let's see what i have 2 do:

1) HSSRP report which is due in a week
2) IHC skit preparations as well as opening ceremony prep
3) start MUGGING uber hard to bring up my grades to at least 4Bs for promos
4) GP project which is long overdue
5) PW stuff which is also long overdue
6) Various tutorials which haven't been completed yet
7) MUG for spa assessments coming up
8) Drop by debates for random sparring sessions

hmm i probably left something out but i can't fathom what it could be. and with this huge list of stuff to do, what am i doing? blogging haha. this something like shu min's theory of doing something completely unrelated when forced to make a choice between things u dun really wanna do. sometimes i just ask myself why i try to get involved in so many things but the answer always persists. i know i have to get a scholarship somehow if i want to go overseas to study and i'm not particularly good in anything so i figured variety rather than depth in ccas would help level the playing field for me. well i just hope that it doesn't affect my studies.

sometimes i wish i could be some superhuman dude who can cope with everything. i guess it's just my way of assuring mysef that i'm useful. i've gone beyond the bitching stage but i'm sure that some of us just sit down sometimes and wonder what the hell we're doing with our lives as suhas has pointed out. i see a thick fog. i dunno if i should follow the conventional path and be a researcher or a doctor. or should i take the road less travelled and be something more daring. life's like that i guess. sigh sometimes u want something so badly and it's just in sight but excruciatingly out of grasp. i shall lengthen my grip haha.

today was a particularly amusing day. school was relatively boring but afterwards we had another ihc meeting. despite constant bitching, the school still doesn't want to make things easier for us. junyi's ranted and raved about it on his blog so i shall spare u the details. i just wish that they would understand that grand occasions require resources as output can only match the size of the input. fingers crossed though. junyi and me then decided to annoy the sports carn ppl who get $4000 more than us and were yet painting banners manually. rich and junyi attempted to lock me in the performing arts theatre which can be quite freaky when dark. everyone slowly started to leave until rich and liru were left. quite amusing to watch them paint a star everytime they accidentally dripped paint. anyway my name has been cast upon the national day banner heh. and liru was putting on a display worthy of an art elective student after scrutinising every detail so worringly. haha dun worry it looks nice!

met jingsong and auyong to spar the team today. thanks guys for turning up on such short notice. we really appreciate it and u guys rock =). even though u pervs were flipping so desperately thru the rg yearbook heh. anyway i love doing analogies. at least now everyone knows the touching story og urgh and grunt the cavemen and their startling discoveries of the wheel as well as copyright laws haha. i've yet to congratulate them on beating ac so yeah! good job guys haha =). go on and win this competition. ur gonna have all the support in the world thanks to ur brilliant PR managers muahahahaha.

oh and i'm quite upset. no one wants to emcee with me =(. haha yes a vacancy has just opened. please contact me for details and an interview could most definitely be arranged. heh =p

i better get back to doing work now. ciao everyone and take care =)

back again

2005-07-15T06:50:00.000-07:00

guess who's back dah dah dah...

haha haven't posted in ages and this is gonna be a short post but the point is that I'M BLOGGING AGAIN!! it's been super busy for me. i screwed up common tests big time. after 4 years of never getting anything below a b, i slacked off and got B D O O. bleargh promos is in 3 months and i have to catch up on a whole shitload of work to get 4 Bs or something.

inter house championships require loads of planning too. but the meetings never fail to amuse me haha. today's one was rather productive. i get to buy lightsabers and ask celebs about their sex lives. or so i deceive myself into thinking heh. it was pretty funky when velda and li ru proposed merging sports carn with it. hahaha i bet they just like my slogan =p

rj debates is going up against ac tmr. should be an interesting debate but i should not comment for the possiblity of insulting ac. rj's prepped real hard for this and i'm sure they'll win. boy it sure is hard work trying to do an incredibly huge public relations drive. haha the govt should hire me and junyi. no, actually the opposition parties should hire us. they could actually win hahaha.. anyway best of luck guys =)

oh no i have so much work. got hssrp and project work. and i really really need to work on my grades. i desperately need a scholarship for university education cuz i'm not a rich fag. come to think of it, i'm not a fag either. unlike arshvin heh.

that reminds me of handball during pe today haha. the only game of handball which has ever seen a ruck, shoulder barges, slaps in the face and slamming opponents on the floor. like i said.. u really dun wanna play dirty against a bunch of indians haha.

anyway i shall end this by saying this.. chere, shang, suhas, mark and jun sheng.. kick ass tmr =)

camp

2005-06-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

like 239 other people, i just came back from ccal camp haha. though it was the usual retarded leadership stuff and very very dirty i'm pretty sure that everyone there had a fantabulous time. i'm certain that i did =). i guess that it would be appropriate to do some funky analysis thingie of the camp haha.

we gathered in school first then went to bintan on ferry. the ferry ride was quite ok.. mostly slept on it. though i was sitting beside some teachers and they were engrossed in a rather 'interesting' conversation. i particularly enjoyed the physics explanation of why it was colder upstairs than downstairs. all in all it was quite stone. then we went on bus to the campsite. bus ride was generally fun. the very squeezed back row consisting of me, arjun, phil k, desmond and jem tan probably shouldn't have talked so loud. but then again, desmond was there so heh. oh and he kept molesting my bag. hmpf.

we reached the campsite which was called Camp Able. unfortunately it was anything but campable. bloody toilets didn't have the flush function and the ground was sloped and muddy. within my first hour in bintan, i saw about 7 different species of insects on my tent. haha. me, arjun, phil, and jem decided to share a tent. cunningly there were only 4 ppl so we had lotsa space. nearby was the 'wayang' tent with dani, desmond, nigel and yong neng. as u will find out later, these were just disasters waiting to happen. group 5 was pretty fun. we went for high ropes first. gulp. i hate heights. probably the only thing i'm afraid of apart from roaches. it rained so we mostly stoned in the air con briefing room. after it rained, my sub sub group got assigned the horizontal wire with the vertical ropes thingie. unfortunately everyone in my group finished it super fast so i had to do it. i climbed up the pole first and took a look down. holy shit that's high! i clung on to the pole for damn long before i got adjusted to the height. then i slowly began to move across. it turned out that my screams or whimpers probably attracted the whole group's attention so everyone was cheering me on (except desmond and philip i think who got tired of cheering me on halfway through and started telling me to fall off). amazingly enough, i completed it within a decent amount of time. haha achievement =p

we got back and had dinner (which was crap like all the other meals) after beach games. haha we got raped in every game bcs teachers were cheating like crazy and helping all the other teams. oh wells. anyway good job to my fellow house com members who made it such a resounding success. go guys! we then had night orienteering. it started off with all of us feeling pretty high. being the useless scout that i am, i decided to slack off. anyway it wasn't that challenging. i waved at every bus of tourists that passed by. we ended up telling ghost stories. all in all it was reeally fun haha. that night everyone was taking a shower. i didn't really feel like it bcs the toilet was like one mass porn show. i did, however, wash my face, neck , arms and legs thoroughly with soap and changed all of my clothes so i was relatively clean (though philip might beg to differ). the wacko tent was running their wayang with nigel bending down on the floor and desmond pretending to stuff things up his ass. from outside, the shadows were pretty realistic hahaha. we all slept well that night even though my head was down the slope. the effective tents didn't let any insects in and were quite well ventilated.

next day saw us start with morning pt which was incredibly slack. then we went off for coastal rock trekking and team building games. the games were the usual rubbish in which the strong people would have no trouble in so with arjun and bryon, we breezed thru them. and as ususal, we broke records only to have them broken by the group after us. sigh. was pretty slack i guess. we started catching grasshoppers after a while. eddison became so pro that he could catch em with two fingers. the things that people do when they're bored haha. after this enriching activity, we went coastal rock trekking. unfortunately it was low tide so there was no water for us to wade in. it was pretty much a no brainer except that u had to watch your step occasionally. was looking forward to kayaking, which was after lunch.

it was decided that apocalypse was beckoning so me and desmond shared a kayak. the briefing was long and useless like all briefings should be. arjun got overexcited during the water confidence test. finally we set off on our sea adventure. the first obstacle we encountered was getting off the shore as we got stuck in shallow water. we got free of the shallow water only to crash into some rocks, nearly getting stuck there too. this was then followed by a whole series of amazing near crashes involving a sampan, a yacht, more rocks and a particularly exhilarating last minute teacher's boat miss. we saw the coastal rock ppl trekking and attempted to steer towards them, only narrowly missing the rocks. everyone noticed our psychomotor problems except that it was desmond who could tell right from left, not me. we finally waged sand wars after getting off the kayaks and then proceeded to prepare for dinner.

the one obstacle between us and dinner materialised in the form of beach war games. after the success of the previous day, there were high expectations. sadly, they failed to deliver (though the house com still rocks my socks =)). it was total chaos with everyone throwing sand and water at each other. the eggs to be destroyed were forgotten (though one suspiciously turned up in desmond's breakfast the following morning). me, dani (the muhd not the moorbet capt), nadjad and arjun were building this sand fortress which kicked the asses of all the other sand fortresses. too bad that mr ortega made us destroy it (though we only pretended to do so). we got scolded in a way i guess for all the chaos. probably one of the less memorable parts.

dinner that night was probably the only semblence of the 5-star food they promised. i think i ate so much that this camp was a rare occasion where i gained weight rather than lose it. however the coffee was super highly caffeine charged. two cups of coffee probably gave me enough energy to outlast an energizer battery. campfire was next and i really have to credit darren leow for pulling of a really good one. it was short, sweet and fun. though i was stoning at the back watching jem and arjun make sand sculptures, i did pay heed to the campfire and took advantage of opportune moments to engage in activities such as booing abhi =p. chork did pretty well with the games and i guess the performances were quite cool too. and mr siva can sure sing haha.

that night, i took my first official shower, by the philkwee standards. it felt pretty good after all that seawater. everyone was really shagged out that night but coffee was taking effect. had an interesting talk with one of the instructors, turby and junyi on wakatobi. the instructors are a pretty cool bunch of people i guess i have to admit. that night we had planned a wayang with a feast but the wayang tent had sucuumbed to fatigue. we enjoyed our mini feast of snickers, h2o and a lot of other stuff. sleeping was slightly trickier this night due to my caffeine injection >_<.

woke up the next morning and started to pack up. we decided not to strike tent yet cuz we had to change up after the jungle trail. so we had breakfast and headed off for the wakatobi (or f***atobi as phillip affectionately calls it) jungle trail. they first taught us the usual stuff like bandages and the hornet drill (which is rather the sort of behavior u expect during a naplam strike or something). while we were walking to the trail, they tried out the hornet drill and we were entertained by phillip trying to find a clean spot to lie on. we also came up with some funky techno wakatobi cheer that instructor eugene found rather amusing. eddison started navigating first but instructor eugene, being the cunning one that he is, 'blinded' eddison. so for the first time ever, i had to use my scout skills for orienteering haha. more people got blinded cuz eugene was a sadist. however, my pro orienteering skills ensured that we took the right path haha. oh and the mosquitoes were killing me bcs i decided to 'challenge the process' and go thru this camp without using any repellant or sunblock. we also had to carry arjun on the stretcher with bryon blinded. that was probably hell haha. anyway we got out of there alive.

by the time we got back to camp, there was so little time left. we packed our stuff and had a quick lunch (except for phillip and jem). so me and arjun had to strike the tent ourselves, which was quite a feat due to the time shortage. then we went for rafting. for the second consecutive rafting session i've been for, everyone refused to listen to the advice and experience of a scout. hence i just shut up and watched with amusement as they tied all sorts of cool knots. desmond abandoned his group for the 324239873925th time and started swimming with arjun. that was probably the activity where we got the most sunburnt. when the raft finally got on the water, there was a struggle to get on it. and i'd like to clarify how the raft got destroyed.. at one point, the raft was leaning heavily to the right and lionel was practically begging me to jump on as they couldn't support the weight anymore. so i jumped on and it flipped the other way and got destroyed.i'd like to make it clear that i only jumped one bcs it was gonna campsize ANYWAY. haha.

anyway after that was the clean up and stuff. i could take a full proper shower cuz i only started when the debrief started. so i took a shower without soap and without drying off. and as usual the cleanliness freaks phillip and arjun started moaning about it (arjun was being hypocritical here as it was just revealed that he only took a bath the morning after he returned home from ccal camp). there was a little ceremony for all the best campers, then a massive phototaking session. there was a pretty cool mass indian photo haha. i'm quite depressed cuz my hair looked like crap in all the photos. i'm not very photogenic during camps haha. we left the campsite and boarded the ferry. on board the ferry too was a phototaking session, though it was annoying cuz they did it on the top floor where we were sitting. 4b-2004 took a photo together =). we then went back home for a well earned rest.

haha that was a pretty detailed analysis of ccal camp. so many other things have happened too but i dun have much time to talk about them now so i guess i shall blog about them another day. however i think it's apt to mention them briefly. i'm so glad carrie underwood won american idol!!! woohoo go carrie =). and i really dunno about what's gonna happen to manchester united but i'm fully behind them! united we stand, together we fall =)

that's about all from me for now cheers =)

burnout

2005-05-19T07:39:00.002-07:00

well it's 4 consecutive finals without a win. i guess that we should be thankful that we're consistent enough to make it to 4 consecutive finals but hey, eventually we need that bit of luck. my opinions on why have lost 4 consecutive finals should not be posted on this blog for the fear of being sued. anyway acjc's were rather disappointing. it was quite cool to speak in semis and finals for the first time in my life. i just wish that we could have won the finals. i thought that we did enough but obviously the adjudicators thought likewise. sarala's opinions have mollified me reasonably though and i guess we can regard this as one huge learning experience. it's also really annoying to change styles to suit adjudicators. really really annoying. many thanks to many people. firstly (this word actually does not exist), the team, especially fellow speakers junyi and aysuria. we rock haha. secondly to all the rj ppl who came down; suhas, shang, navjote, mark, junsheng, rui and ppl who couldn't be there like chere and jon yap. we owe mr mcconnell a huge thanks too. thirdly, to sarala and the ri clowns, jing song, fahd, auyong, marvin n all. real huge thanks to sarala for her help even though coaching rj probably wasn't included in her job description =p

lots of other stuff happening too. sorry for not updating regularly but i just couldn't find the time to. i pulled off one of the greatest public relations coups ever and made it into the moortar house committee. no one knew or cared who the hell i was during campaigning as i decided to take the brave approach of going solo and then not campaigning at all bcs of acjc's. but i gave one hell of a kickass arrogant speech and it was the kind of thing people liked i guess so poof.. i'm in the com. we seem like a really fun bunch of people do hopefully victory is on the cards. let's revolutionize the house system guys!! =)

i've realised that having an 4 exco positions is not really a bed of roses and a testimonial extension. it's pretty darn hard work. since i hold mostly admin positions, the admin work is really piling up and pressure is mounting. should be able to cope though hopefully. i'm certainly relishing the challenge. can't wait for ccal camp. the last time i went for an outdoor camp would probably be the sec1 orientation camp. hopefully the experience would be OBS-ish. the house com would be planning inter group beach games so this should be rather interesting. oh and i nearly forgot hssrp. damnit i need to get that back on track haha or else our prof would think we've died already or something haha.

school stuff is pretty hectic. i've conscientiously tried to prevent turorial pileup but this past few weeks have been fruitless. there's just been too much stuff going on and i lag by about 2 tutorials in each subject. i'll really need to june hols to sort things out so that common tests would seem like a foreign concept to me. here's ajit's goals for the cts. GP- any A, Math- at least B, Physics- at least B, Biology- at least B, Chemistry- at least C. they seem rather unrealistic considering my current status but if holidays are put to good use then salvaging this might just be possible.

american idol finale has been settled. as predicted long ago it's a bo-carrie showdown. i hope carrie wins. though her performances haven't really touched 'alone' standard yet. i still think she's a really good n versatile singer. simon shouldn't keep encouraging her to do country. i hate country haha. bo is really good too but rather one-dimensional. and furthermore i think carrie needs to win this competition more than bo cuz he's practically cemented his place in the industry already. great singers, both of them but i'm still rooting for the good ole farm girl, Carrie Underwoood. woohoo =)

i'm gonna install warcraft again tmr and start playing. this long absence has heightened my yearning for it haha. i must also get into dotar gear. i think this would do me a world of good. FIFA is a really good antidepressant but i guess violence always hits the spot. i've recently discovered the joy that can be derived from pokemon. nabil and me are practically addicted to crystal version on abhi's palmtop. nabil's croconaw and my pidgeotto make a formidable conbination haha. tutorials will never be the same again heh. OH AND I MUST WATCH REVENGE OF THE SITH!! as a diehard starwars fan, this is the ultimate epilogue. a must see. i would treasure that moment for eternity haha. lots of nice movies like batman and the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy are coming. money is flying.. noo...

ajit is rather tired now after typing all this. he will now retire to take a a well deserved rest. he thanks you for taking the trouble to read this post. good night.
ciao =)

downhill

2005-04-09T23:48:00.000-07:00

these past few weeks have just been like a nightmare that doesn't seem to ending anytime soon. i thirst for some semblance of good news and as much as i don't want to bitch, it's really hard not to. life just gets suckier by the moment.

i got rejected by council. it wouldn't have been as sad had i lost out to capable people but half the people who got through the interviews are just.. i shall not comment. i may come across as sounding bitter but it's not just about myself; how is it that someone with 2 service awards can lose out to someone without a cca and barely a hint of school spirit? it's flawed and this election process has made me lose all respect for council. it's just another ripb-ish thing now and they've made a lot of enemies whom u would rather have on your side than against u. i believe jun yi has also blasted flaws in the system so i shall not probe further.

ri team 2 got knocked out on friday nite. i can't help but feel guilty. uwc ran a case that focused on other issues apart from national security. after looking thru their cases, i knew that team 2 had this inherent flaw that could be exploited. but i underestimated uwc. i should have fucking buffered up their case and prepared them better or at least sought some professional help instead of approving of their cases. i know that the loss was theirs but i can't help but feel partly responsible. i'm sorry.

and then there's the worry of my future in rjc. it's almost assured that i won't get any leadership or exco position whatsoever. a rather sad demotion from the 3 (4 if u count the short icc stint) i had in secondary school. this is seriously gonna hamper my chances of landing a scholarship. i want to go to a top overseas university but i can't afford it without a scholarship. i desperately need something to add weight to my claim for a scholarship but it's just eluding me.

man utd lost to norwich yesterday. the ultimate humiliation for one of the world's biggest football clubs. they just lost all hope and drive after crashing out in milan and have never been the same since. sigh there's no captain marvel this time to rescue them. i hope ferguson breathes in new life during the summer and will staunchly stick by the club. glory days may not be truly over yet.. we'll just have to wait and see.

on a slightly brighter note, carrie underwood still remains on american idol. her performances are just so delightful to watch. there's been this whole shitload of bashing going on about her but i hope that her fans stay strong and continue voting for her. jealousy simply cannot reign over talent. go carrie =)

i now quote the chem broz...

"the time has come to galvanise"

orientation

2005-03-24T22:50:00.000-08:00

firstly i'd like to say a big SCREW U to vj for what they did to imran. i hope they fucking rot to hell and get the school burnt down or something. fuck those rotten bastards. i'm sorry i ever considered going to that shithole. jae has just turned out to be one big joke and can just add to the list of stuff on why i hate this country. congrats to all who stayed and i'm really really sorry to all i couldn't.

on a lighter note though o2 was an absolute complete horrible failure. firstly, these are j1s leading j1s. secondly, it's so artificial. all these people are just there to improve their resume to get into council. they didn't have the spark the original o team had. thirdly, the activities were so bloody boring and useless. and cmon i don't want to hear about the amount of planning involved bcs there were so many o2 people involved and it's only a 2 day affair. even then, the planning sucked. for cip, we went to ang mo kio central. which was a total shitty place to do cip. well we were supposed to be doing cip. ok ok so we weren't really doing much cip.

our class bunched together at first and had unsuccessful attempts to look for a place to lan and we couldn't play pool in uniform. so we split up. me, suhas and harshil went together at first and i managed to kop a few of suhas' customers. heh. then we managed to lose harshil. after discovering that breeks had a student offer of 1 buck for a drink we decided to collect some people and have a break. so we met up with abhi, ian ,nabil, kevin and delwin. when there's such an illegal gathering heh u know there's gonna be trouble. we trapsied off to breeks bcs it had the cheap drinks and was relatively posh. u could see the waiter's look of glee when we said table for 7. we were thinking of how to break it to him that we were only ordering drinks and making a lot of noise haha. so we ordered drinks and suhas decided to share a brownie with ice cream with me. we thought that payment was going 2 be easy after all of us dumped our dollar coins on the table. then we realised that there was service charge. so all of us started emptying 5 cent coins on the table. u could just picture such a scene in a posh restaurant haha. then nabil (being the stupid mat that he is =p) decided that this was the perfect opportunity to AIR HIS WET PE T-SHIRT!! he still couldn't see what was wrong with doing that in an air conditioned restaurant after we kindly screwed him for it.

then the items we ordered came. suhas and me were sharing a brownie but ian decided to butt in. so a three way fight ensued with loud vulgarities and flying brownie bits. we only realised that we were a BIT loud when everyone was staring at us. then we turned to drinks. somehow my butterfingers managed to let the really heavy glass slip through them and it CRASHED onto the table with ice spilling over. oi thought the glass broke but thankfully it didn't. once again attention diverted to our table haha. oh and i started fiddling with the sugar. i emptied a sachet onto my ice and made it look like crystals. i thought it looked quite cool but obviously the restaurant staff didn't heh. then charlene and wan lin found us and we were considering shifting our bill to them and walking out but hey, we didn't. nabil was airing his t-shirt again so we left immediately after they finished their drinks. as we were leaving, this guy walked over to us and asked us if we were from rjc. which was a BIT redundant since we were wearing rjc t-shirts. but we were too scared to notice at that point of time. we thought that we were gonna be BUSTED big time. turns out that he was a nice guy and said that it was alright for us to have a break. he also told us to report back bcs it was time to return. PHEW. we scrammed. oh and cip was a bit of a failure bcs the average earnings for our little clique was about 5 to 6 dollars. muahaha.

haha the rest of o2 during different times was spent playing soccer and risk haha. time well spent i say. i heard the concert was shit too. oh well. i guess this o2 didn't make any huge dent in the history of o2s. haha.

bye bye.

soccer

2005-03-21T20:40:00.000-08:00

i must admit that cristiano ronaldo has won me over once again. when the youngster first arrived, like many others, i was blown away but slowly, that turned into irritating at his showboating at the end of last season/beginning of this season. now however, we see his maturation into a dazzling player and i believe that in time, he will become the best winger in the world. already, in my opinion he's probably among the top few wingers in the world and what sets him apart would be that fact that he's two footed. people wax lyrical about arjen robben but they forget about this portugeuse wunderkind who is probably better (not that arjen robben is a bad player). along with wayne rooney who is truely 'boy wonder', i think man utd have the two best youngsters in the country. i just hope that they stay, especially ronaldo (i'm not so worried about rooney as i dun think he'd leave).

to top that off, the man utd youth system has swung into overdrive and there a a whole bunch of youngsters with potential. pique seems to be rio ferdinand's future central defensive partner while spector is ready to slot in when heinze calls it a day. both these players are really solid and i look forward to seeing them in the first team. mcshane and bardsley also are rumoured to be decent. in midfield, there's the flamboyant rossi who's bound to be a huge star in the future and i shudder to think what defences might have to face in the future with a ronaldo-rossi-rooney attack. david jones and ngualula are supposedly solid players in the centre of the park in the mould of scholes and keane so we'll just have to wait and see. up front man utd have young kenny cooper to look forward to; a tall powerful forward who's also skillful. ebanks-blake looks decent as well. oh and i nearly forgot the goalkeeping department where the highly impressive luke steele waits for his chance to grab the united goalkeeping slot. surely the future england goalie as well if he's as good as they say.

i expect man utd to make some interesting buys during the summer. essien would be an good buy. it'd be interesting to see how he works in the middle with darren fletcher. fletcher is like a much improved version of david beckham, slow but with deadly passing skills. united could have fletchr spraying balls all over the park with essien controlling and running the midfield. a winger is needed to replace giggs and with the luxury of ronaldo, utd can buy either a right or left sided one. i would love to see joaquin (my favourite player heh) at man utd but he's too expensive. i only hope he doesn't go to chelski. vicente would be excellent. for central midfield, united could go for gattuso who's excellent as well and they could sneakily poach an unhappy joe cole form chelsea. both would be exceptional for utd. defensively, man utd need a replacement for silvestre and a goalie. king would be good but man utd thankfully have brillant full backs and replacements (heinze/spector, neville/brown). a cheeky attempt at getting casillas to solve utd's keeping problems could be made as real madrid are currently unsettled. anyway, whatever they do, i'll be behind them all the way =). i'm also looking forward to pool getting raped by juventus and hopefully munich will do the same to chelsea.

apart from soccer, nothing much going on haha. i guess i must really buck up this term. the so called 'honeymoon period' is over and i better get into gear before i fall to far behind in my work. i'm staying in rjc and 02 is coming up. everyone seems to be making plans, nothing to do with 02 haha, so i'll see wad's gonna be happening. council elections are coming up too and i really hope that i can get in [fingers crossed =)]. i'm very bored now so i shall go and atttempt to pump up my ipod mini with songs cuz it's relatively empty. suhas better help me out haha. i'm also waiting for my uber cool skin.

ciao =)

conscience

2005-03-09T06:42:00.000-08:00

i'm very frustrated. my conscience is driving me up the wall. i don't want to feel the guilt. the flood of conscience or pangs of guilt in those rare moments when i choose to indulge or when i act on impulse. it just doesn't feel right to get an ipod mini. as i sat in the canteen the other day i watched this friendly old cleaner who always never fails to say hello. it struck me that by buying an ipod mini, i could probably be spending the equivalent of nearly 3/4 of her salary. it bothers me. could this money not be better spent elsewhere? i take consolation in the fact that my parents are buying it as a gift. then my bloody conscience acts up again and i find myself asking if i truly deserve it? wasn't i aiming for 9a1s and is 7a1s really enough to warrant so lavish a gift?

though i'll most probably get the mini, i need to sort out my thoughts. my mind is completely flooded right now. i'm also facing the prospect of disciplinary action for ponning tamil. i've to write a letter to the h.o.d. i mean like wtf. i'm probably the most 'on' student in the class and he does this shit. vishal has done bucketloads of shit and the rest of us get into trouble? i'm sick of tamil. hard work got me nowhere. the only thing binding me there is the fact that jacks means well and that ponning class will affect other areas like council. my parents have just advised me to bide my time and try my best for one more year. i shall attend class but i don't know if i will ever work as hard again. i hope i dun get a white slip or worse and even if i do, i hope it doesn't affect my council chances. that would be the day.

screw the maths test. that's probably the last thing on my mind right now. i've got too much to contemplate. everything that i've put aside or stored in my mind is coming out once again. i must orientate myself once more from this disoriented state i am in and be ready by next term. most definitely needs to be done as only then would studies come into the picture and i need to do some catching up worthy of 'the amazing race'. i have been intricately woven into the fabric of the vicious mug cycle and the holidays is where i shall cultivate this. sigh i have no life. i'm very tired also. have been spending many a late night aimlessly blog surfing or on msn or doing work. i need to sleep.

i shall now do the typical ajit thing and type something totally irrelevant to what has been said so far in terms of content and mood. i think kelly clarkson rocks. i luv kelly clarkson *giggles irritatingly*. as chere puts it, i am once again in 'hot blooded hormonal teen' mode. but kelly clarkson is a brilliant singer and a very nice person. and she's only 6 years older then me =)
there is still hope *covers ears and refuses to listen to any dissenting comments*

there is still hope.

staying

2005-03-03T06:06:00.000-08:00

well i guess that it's decided then. mua will be staying to fight for his place in rjc. it will be tough but i won't buckle under pressure and such great odds. hmm that makes it sound like some war or battle. well isn't that what school life is all about these days haha.

anyway i can't say that i'm unhappy with my o's but i'm not incredibly thrilled either. i'm just disappointed that i didn't get my 9a1s for all the hard work that i put in and that the two subjects which i didn't get an a1 in were out of my control. it is excruciating trying not to bitch about it on the blog so yeah haha. i hate tamilans heh.

now that i've consolidated my position in rjc, i'm ready to mount a full throttled challenge for council. this is what i want to do and i'm gonna work for it. though i have to admit that matin and lynn are considerably more excited about this than i am haha. i also will probably join another cca like maybe recreational volleyball and when my future with debates looks bleak enough, i'll quit for RECAS or something else. PEARLS ain't gonna stop me from getting into a good course in a good uni.

on the topic of debates, we have ntu's this saturday. the 4th preliminary round which we have to go for since we dun know the result of the 3rd preliminary round. i hope i dun have to go thru the same trauma of directing 3/4 of the rj team to places ranging from ntu to lt 19 *shudders*. aysuira, arshvin and me managed pretty well. we brushed aside a valiant vjc team and then gave smu a decent run for their money and picked up a judge against them. SMU are an incredible team haha. we were waxing lyrical (to quote js) after facing them and they're really nice people too. would love to face them again. the last debate was against ntu and no one really gave half a shit except me so naturally it was screwed up. very funny though when the blackout happened and i managed to use it to my advantage in my speech *winks*.

wah lau. i dun want to meet another university on sat. i want a free frag. anyway ntu's are very amusing for introducing xtreme lameness into my speech haha. oh and i still dunno wad ISUC stands for. heh. oh and the lunch there sucks. they ran out of pizza b4 i arrived. that's just sad. very very sad.

ri debate trainings are also turning out to be quite useful. i'm honing my cricket skills haha. but the most interesting class sport still has to be dustpan hockey starring ian and suhas. our class rocks. woohoo. i hope no one leaves. seriously. it'll be damn sad. i'd love new introductions tough haha. mel... jeremy... cmon =)

i'm also contemplating whether to play soccer with the IMF tmr or to see what chork is treating us to. it better be good heh.
anywayz toodles for now =)

life rocks

2005-02-15T06:16:00.000-08:00

now a digression from the bleary nature of the previous posts was imminent and wadaya know.. it's this post! life has been totally wacko and fun so far and i feel the burning urge to blog heh.

there was vcs on sat and congrats to the rjc team for breaking FIRST!!! woohoo!!! great job guys and keep it up. the first win of the year beckons. saw lotsa ppl again including bel and kenneth [hi guys!!!]. ok i'm getting spastic haha. it was an all out bridge affair during the prep periods with me, js and turby forming the nexus of the squad. i realised that i suck quite badly when i burnt js's ace and king when he was my partner and let the other pair win with 5 clubs. bleargh. also met rg debaters who don't know auyong personally so there still is hope in the world heh. we were also treated to law faculty treats such as the mass 'cum' rally and the funky law t-shirt insulting the shit out of lawyers that sawa's gonna help me get my hands on. interaction with the vcs team proved very interesting indeed and aysuria and rui min have been the latest victims of the ex-ri debate 'ku klux klan' muahaha. just remember that it's all harmless fun haha. there was also something else to smile about at vcs but i shall not go into the details as it probably involves a lot of complications. why couldn't i have been born less smart haha. pure ego i know.

valentine's day was on monday and what a perfect day to find out that rama's sexual orientation is as crooked as suhas's mind heh. i also received a lot of greetings, mostly from guys, which didn't disturb me and that disturbs me. i've found out that girls are very good at valentine's day and it was this that kept a constant flow of sweets and chocolates to sustain me throughout the day. i also attained membership for the 1so3b gossip club so hurrah!! but most of the glory from v day got wiped out when an anti-v day revelation was made that broke my heart. and that made it a double whammy. unbreak my heart....

haha pe today was damn fun too. i led the class in a funky democratic stretching exercise that wasted a substantial amout of time but made sure that we were as flexible as hamsters on drugs. then we did some sets of exercises where everyone was slacking and the teacher didn't really care bcs he rocks haha. we got to play soccer after that 'strenuous' activity. suhas decided to steroetype all fast people as good soccer players and chose all the x country ppl. they lost 2 nil heh.

the rest of the day was pretty boring until the civil defence siren sounded. it took a lot of persuasion for us to finally believe that it was not the start of a holy war and that we could come out from under the tables haha. fast forward to the free period b4 mother tongue. we had a nice chat with the security guard who caught us but i shall not write about it. totally hilarious incident and it can be tossed on the pile of stories that have become legend over the years. pray do ask for details if interested haha. tamil lesson was delayed by 30 mins due to a certain bridge game and we watched some cool movie during it. thus the birth of the jaXbox heh.

can't wait for training tmr [i dun have a life rite haha]. please tag k cuz my board is dying. cyaz =)

happy tree friends

2005-02-10T19:28:00.000-08:00

i must say a huge thanks to all that have tagged nice messages and give a huge kick-up-the-ass to the blind malhotra. due thanks must go out to jun yi and his post on the PEARLS system which saves me the trouble of having to say anything about it. heh. happy belated cny to all too and i apologise for my mini hiatus.

i saw an article the other day in the newspaper. some parent complained about happytreefriends.com. said that there was too much violence and that children should not be exposed to such gore. according to experts exposing young children to such vices could damage their minds and affect their growth. well that's all nice and dandy then. ban this website and everything will be a-ok. these people haven't really bothered to open their eyes have they? have they bothered to take one good look around before classifying happytreefriends as a bad influence and a problem plaguing children. i shudder at such blatant ignorance. s'porean view.

elsewhere in indochina, sobbing parents part with their young daughters; young daughters whom they are unable to feed or take care of. they are forced into selling their daughters or abandoning them. practically all of these children either embrace death or fall prey to prostitution. the unlucky ones become toys of sick paedophiles with the sole desire of corrupting innocence. these kids rarely get past 30 when they grow older(r.d.) and even if they are lucky enough to escape, society pulls the iron fence to draw a seperation. exclusion is all they will ever know of freedom. that is a problem.

in africa, kids starve to death. we have all seen pictures of kids suffering from malnutrition in bio txtbks and advertisements. african kids. kids getting slaughtered in violent conflicts like the rwanda genocide. kids who lose their families and are forced to fend on their own. kids who resort to eating grass or any available item to loosen the steel grasp of hunger. everything's magnified when u take into consideration that these are kids. now that's another problem.

and there are many others. some well known, many too gruesome to be spoken of. these children face a struggle so huge, a journey they have to make on their own. their struggle is for life and not for some stupid popularity thing. it bugs me a lot. why am i here, bitching about my problems when these kids are suffering? it's wrong for me to be caught up in the rat race of life and to be so wound up within myself. i am guilty. sadly enough, i'm not the only one. many of us live in our little shells forgetting all that is important. our desires, like smokescreens, cloud our thoughts. people just throw money and shout charity. these kids don't seek money. all those people don't seek money. what they seek is intangible and only when we realise the full extent of this will we be one step closer to ending these problems.

spare a thought.

short post 2

2005-02-01T10:55:00.000-08:00

ok shall start off this post by acknowledging some tags that have caught my eye
bhavan: hey dude long time no see =). i'll link u as soon as i have enough time 2 k. make sure u come back 2 play soccer with us sometimes
js: gee thanks... that was one of the nicest tags ever... oh btw i missed out on that lousy plastic trophy last yr by 2.4 points so grrr haha... hope u had a great b'dae =)

anyway i'll make this short. sometimes i just feel that all i have to offer is mere commitment. i wish i could offer more. simple words for a simple wish. for once, i want to possess some skill, something special that sets me apart. i don't want just pure dedication or enthusiasm. these things won't get me anywhere and that i'm sure of. the hardworking and the committed lie forgotten in the shadows while the skilled strut the catwalk of life. it makes me wonder, why commit myself fully to such futile avenues?

but sometimes, and just sometimes, u see the smiles on people's faces and it purges your mind of all distortion. it makes u realise that some things are worth fighting for after all.

archery dumped me too. hopefully council doesn't go for the grandslam.

joy and depression

2005-01-29T04:42:00.000-08:00

darn. i just wrote a long post and it got deleted with the push of the back button. i am severely pissed off right now and i seriously doubt if i can reach the level of the first post once more.

another week has passed by and there have been so many ups and downs, highs and lows that have gotten me incredibly confused. within this web of confusion, exhoes of "success cannot be acheived without failure" reverberate , leading me to question if it is the norm for them to occur simultaneously. both seem to have invaded my life this week in the form of two intertwined lovers . okay enough with the imagery for now. iso much has happened that i don't know whether to laugh or cry haha. i mean boo hoo.

firstly, i went for archery clinic and realised that i'm a young legolas in the making. now contrary to popular belief, legolas is actually hundreds of years old and owes his youthful features to extremely good skincare products. my great^10 grandpa went to school with his brother hence the inside information. remember those irritating adonis adverts heh. anywayz i was pretty decent but there was a hyge stumbling block. the stuff required cost between 300 to 500 dollars. that not only burns a hole in your pocket but sets the rest of your pants ablaze too. i don't think it would be fair to siphon this money from my parents for the sake of cheap- no expensive thrills. i'm still blur on whether i should go down for trials. sigh.

ri won both debates on friday though. excellent show by both teams and much credit must go to suhas amd junyi for working so hard for the juniors. of course most credit must go to sarala for doing such a great job too. however the competition has not been won yet and we must still tred with humility. mgs did very well with christine particularly in scintillating form. ri did well though to counter and they came away with a good win. the supposedly 'weaker' team managed to disprove the so-called theory of disparity between both teams. hopefully both will move on to acheive great things. fingers are crossed =)

there always has to be a downside though and it came soon after. the srjc invitational semis turned out to be the pin that burst our bubble. after meeting the droopy-eyed team in the morning and spending the one hour prep completing homework, i was psyched up for an rj win. it was not to be though despite a commendable performance.. after all the team is relatively new at working together and i'm very sure that after complete team gelling has occured, an even more formidable force will be born. depending on circumstances i'll be with u or (most likely) behind u all the way =)

there it is. i can't really make heads or tails of it right now probably bcs i'm very tired. i'm sure thigns will sort themselves out in time and all will be well. in the meantime, i shall try to make the best of what i have right now and keep on movin. i shall also impose a rule that all who visit this blog must tag. this has been created in the euphoria of having regained my tag-board. *smiles*

that's all from me for now =)

short post

2005-01-25T07:15:00.000-08:00

hello everyone. unfortunately i am very depressed because i'm unable to access my tagboard and i can't see all the posts =(
not really in the mood to blog until it comes back up. this bears a certain similarity to a strike. even so there are some issues which still need to be addressed =)

saturday was totally brilliant. i got to see imran again. I LOVE IMRAN!!! haha contrary to popular belief, despite the fact that i advocate gay rights, i am NOT gay (so tell suhas to put away that pot of boiling mercury). for those who are unable to comprehend the un-serious nature of the above comment, it was a joke. i do not want to wake up tomorrow morning with the headlines of certain *ahem* people's blogs wrongly underlining my sexual orientation. furthurmore, i don't want to come to school to find out that there are a bunch of guys interested in playing soggy biscuit, cookie or hot dog bun with me.

rjc managed to break into the semis despite losing an entertaining debate against the World Schools team. keeping to the spirit of srjc invitational motions, the finals motion has turned out to be incredibly vaugue but yet funky. i'm also looking forward to jgs this fri nite. thank god these competitions have provided me with a valid excuse to pon odac camp so that i don't have to go to the hellhole that is pulau ubin. it rates pretty high on my list of places i'd like to leave hillary duff and paris hilton to die.

looking forward to seeing everyone on fri too. steph better come down to watch or ajit will be very angry with the serial hugger =p
i think i shall go on a recruiting drive to drag people to support the debate on friday. anyone interested should sign up with me by tagging when my board is back up. *laughs evilly*

aaahh my level of english has seriously deteriorated. this post ish verey poorely ritten. eye musht maek an effert two youse batter engrish.
this is an anomaly post. enjoy it while i still lack a tagboard to keep me in check.

this is pure nonsense haha. boom::

all that u can't leave behind

2005-01-21T21:25:00.000-08:00

there are things that are worth fighting for and there are things that are not worth fighting for. when these two seemingly polar opposites are juxtaposed, a startling discovery is made. surprise they're not as different as one would imagine them to be. life has stabbed me, thrashed me about and left me to rot so many times before. don't get me wrong, i do realise how fortunate i am but one sometimes just has to wonder - have pure grit and determination lost their place in this world?

society has morphed into a cage, where to escape obscurity and acheive success one has to be popular, good-looking, smart or rich. people may still continue to chant the mantra that hard work reaps in the profits. personal experience speaks otherwise. the last time i actually got anywhere by working hard was probably my ex-ri debates secretary position. even the jg's victory came with close to zero recognition so it probably wasn't a case of being rewarded. i don't regret doing all that work though, it's just that it would be nice if my efforts were recognised for once.

moor house got into the act the year b4 last during the interviews. loyal service to the house for the past 3 years obviously didn't warrant one bloody interview. it's not the lost oppurtunity of house captaincy that bothered me because in my opinion, the 3 captains we had were brilliant and i wouldn't have wanted to replace them with anyone else, including myself. as naggy as i may sound for harping on such a trivial issue, it would have made all the difference.

i could continue listing things but there's just no point because it won't undo anything. indulging in such bursts of self pity is never going to do any good, never has and never will. the purpose of this entry is merely to inform. to inform everyone that life never gives u what u want. there's a fixed set of people who are meant to get things and a fixed set of people who aren't meant to. always has and always will be. it's a law of nature. it's fate.

but it won't stop me from trying though.
"we tried our lives away
this pain won't go away
story of my life"

btw i didn't get into hockey.

the saga begins

2005-01-19T23:42:00.000-08:00

ok i've finally set up this new blog after hours of procrastination and other evil habits whatsoever. my previous blog tended to divulge in extreme bouts of immature bitchiness so i shall try to correct that imperfection in this blog. my bitching shall now be strictly mature *laughs*. since this is the first post in my newly minted blog, i shall also try to make this first post as long and reflective as possible.

those eager beavers who have followed my exploits thru my other blog would be left hanging on the season finale cliffhanger entry on me faring badly in the common tests. well fear not people for i had redeemed myself in the prelims and now am in happy residence in rjc. 6a1s, 2a2s and a b3 in lit bcs of a certain individual whom i shall not name nor comment on for the fear of being reprimanded. entered rjc comfortably and had loads of fun during orientation. i was placed in sheimarrakan (which is a combination of lynn and matin's surnames but why they didn't make it kanmarrasheik still eludes me *laughs evilly*). K'predoras 2005 totally rocked and thanks must really go out to the o team as well as our supercalifragilisticexpealidociosly uber amazing ogls lynn and matin. ole to them =). thanks must also go out to sheimarrakan (or kanmarrasheik heh) for being such a great og (i'd repeat the word used above except for the fact that it's irritatingly long). ronald and jian 'james' hong also deserve a warm round of applause for helping out so much and giving us the impression that we had 3 1/2 ogls. orientation was truly a wonderful experience and i hope i can return as an ogl next year (if i do, i expect the funky foursome of lynn, matin, ronald and jian hong to crash and maybe this time u guys and girl can pretend to be from poly haha).

after much thought and consideration, i have also decided to join debates in jc. secondary school debates and the jg's season had drained me at first and i was unsure if i wanted to go thru all of it again. sitting on the bench as a reserve feeling so helpless while everyone around u seems to be doing so much work.... trying so hard to be useful by multi tasking like crazy.... the constant taunts about only being able to timekeep and not debate.... the anxious waiting for the speaking team positions to come out.. clinging on to the thin shred of hope that this debate might be your chance to speak... remaining in the shadows while the rest were being hailed as heroes... it seriously put me off initially. i'm not bitching about last year. i've accepted it and moved on. but i still had to seriously consider if this was what i wanted to go thru again. i guess the answer was yes because here i am in rjc debates. i also guess that it's worth sacrificing for the team and i'm going to be putting in my best. i'll be behind u guys all the way in the quest to regain the lost challenge shield. go team *laughs*. i also tried out for hockey but i still don't know if i've gotten in yet. it's a real pity if i don't get in cuz i know that the only reason for that would be poor fitness. failed trial attempts in sec 1 keep haunting me and i fear the worst. sigh i guess i'll just have to move on if i'm not in. i've also decided to join council. but that's pretty depressing too cuz the number of popular people who plan to join is ginormous. getting votes ahead of these people is gonna take something special. sighz.

i want to be someone in jc. i dun want to be the guy who's always hanging around other people. the guy who works behind the scenes but never gets any credit for what he does. i want to be at the forefront. i want to gain some semblance of respect and not have people treat me like shit all the time. i dun just want to be the nice guy who's easy to manipulate. i want to be someone and go places. i dun want to be left behind and be forgotten. i want to be recognised and taken seriously. i don't want jc to be a repeat of secondary school. someday people are going to regret just brushing me aside and taking my contributions so lightly. i'm gonna be somebody.

ok i seem to be rearing off course into the bitchy track. i should probably end this before it gets too out of hand haha. this is probably pretty much all i have 2 say for now. when i'm less tired i'll probably blog about my class and hurl a whole new set of expelatives at them.
i shall end off with a customary joke.

what did the apple say to the orange?

nothing... apples can't talk =)